The day went very wild. There was such a shame, the whole day, that I lost everything in life. All that, that I had build in the last 2 years came to an end. The palace built by me with so much of love and effort came down to soil in a second. It was such a shame in front of the whole world. People lost their inhibitions and showed such exhibitions that made me cry at myself. If I had known that my efforts would pay me this, I would never ever make an effort in life. What have I got from this at least. Just failure and hatredness. People are so worst. I sacrified everything for their happiness and today, finally, they made a scene like I never did anything to them expcept giving pains to them. Why at least was I given birth in this dirty world which is full of such worse-minded people? Why am I being made a victim for my good thoughts? What was my mistake at least? Was it that I never thought about me in the process of adding value to others’ life? Was it that I sacrificed all my life for the welfare of people? What did I get in return? I never wanted anything in return. I just wanted to see that my efforts turn into success. But what I was given was nothing more than cheating. I was cheated, I was faked, I was used to play, I was just bluffed. Even after all this, like a mad, I approached them telling that they were wrong and made them understand. It appears as if they understood. But I am sure, these people will never understand. I have got an assurance that such mistakes will not happen, but I am betting today, that tomorrow, I will again write a sad note, for the same reason as today. Bad night, worse dreams, worst life…
Life is a such a tragic event. Sri Krishma Paramatma himself has told in BhagwadGita that the earth is a world of wrongs/mistakes. It is a treasure of sadness. However, many might not feel so. Many are very happy on earth. So, where is their treasure (of sadness). Who has stolen it? Well, the answer is me. I have stolen all the sadness in this world and kept it with me. Life is just a sad saga- an event of setbacks for me. Never ever have i been able to do anything that I wish. Why at least I am living this life which is sucking everything off me? For what mistake of mine am I suffering so much? 
I guess, the mistake is that I am not in my senses. I have lost my senses. They say that the senses are the drivers. And all my drivers are driving to wrong directions. One needs to emphasize a very good control on one’s senses. If not, it can be very dangerous. I am in such a position of life that I am unable to do anything. Neither study, nor work, nor anything. The people for whom I sacrificed everything are today asking me to get out from their lives. I have become a nuisance to them. Well, at least they be happy. Life has taken me to such a place that the only option left is to say-’Goodbye life’ so that my loved ones can at least stay happy
